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Contrary Magazine

The Journal of Unpopular Discontent

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Caught

He found a woman on Tinder, but then she wanted to meet for the first time at her house. No woman had ever wanted to meet him at her house. They had some sort of rule book: a public place, a neut...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2023/caught/

Four Poems

Leaving Why didn’t you just leave? I swam into a coastal cave that began to fill with water at high tide. Don’t you have family you could have gone to? The yellow finch by the porch brought h...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2023/four-poems/

Dionysius

Sitting drinking red Gatorade in the bath, water almost scalding with clementine coriander flavored froth, I reformulate my metaphysics. That is, tonight I’ll rationalize my lust to calm my bre...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2023/dionysius/

Saturnine

On All Souls Day, I descended the infinite well of marble steps, down and down, it was a bank holiday in Catalonia with businesses closed so the street gave off that dull, saturnine feeling of ol...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2023/saturnine/

Silvia

The radio said that Silvia would be a category one hurricane. Hours before her arrival I developed a grade-one buzzing in my ears, much more troubling than a common tinnitus. I feared that Silvia...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2022/silvia/

Samuelle

Grandma Cillie has never said a word about the three weeks spent at her sister’s when she sought distance from what was happening with my Uncle Avery. Good thing Grand Aunt Moll talks, or I wou...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2022/samuelle/

Two Poems

Excursion, in the Year of Unmaking Hoping to descend from the year of unmaking – we went, that evening, for a walk. In the park there was a house, burnt in demolition. Don’t look at it – my...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2022/two-poems-9/

Two Poems

Lovely is the World —after Yehuda Amichai It is still early in this century and there is still a lingering scent of hope, and flowers still decorate cemeteries and even in camps where families ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2022/two-poems-8/

Hypnosis

After dark, the prairie ripens with desire. Fields of want and dust vibrate under your feet with lust. Cicadas, crickets, locusts all jump in your blood as the light shyly melts, blushes in heat ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2021/hypnosis/

Invasive

I had been thinking towards the death of my mother for years. How would I grieve? How would our story, sparse as it was, end? And then it happened: My mother, who I had never met, who I had spok...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2021/invasive/

Dissociate

My oldest didn’t know where her body began and her mind ended. She couldn’t feel the sensation of embodiment, as if she were always afloat in astral projection. She could swallow, could walk,...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2021/dissociate/

Love Fugue

Exposition Jamelle Raizer, my birth mother, was the first in her family to marry a non-Jew. She had long, dark curly hair. Sang as she stepped out of the shower. She gave me away and checked hers...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2021/love-fugue/

What If All Our Sex Rituals Were Narrated By David Attenbor...aybe Love is Only a Chemistry Problem We Are Trying to Forget)

I want David Attenborough’s rich, flowing voice. I want him to focus on the finer details under the dim light of our kitchen, the place where love and dancing around the right sequence of lucky...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2021/what-if-all-our-sex-rituals-were-narrated-by-david-attenborough-or-maybe-love-is-only-a-chemistry-problem-we-are-trying-to-forget/

Honeycomb

The sun dawdled on the yellow windowsill. The house was quiet. Noisy youths played ball in the street, but all was silent inside. I was as quiet as an owl in a barn, too quiet for my neighbour, V...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2021/honeycomb/

Fear North

Eight years ago, before Boko-Haram were nothing but tales that echoed out of the distance; before the word Sambisa rang ominous, bearing the mark where the rest of the north would erupt into a co...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2021/fear-north/

Two Poems

DURING COVID, SHE DREAMS OF LEAVING A MASKED MAN +++++++++++++++++++++++and then after, telling him why Because we were the bones of bees++++++++++++++++++++++++and too fragile to last beyond the...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/two-poems-6/

A Long Way

Pearl sat between me and Moone in the cabin of my van. Moone was driving because Moone insisted on driving. I didn’t argue. We sailed through the Jack Lynch tunnel and struck north on the N20. ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/a-long-way/

Two Poems

100 Feathers Tied In Bundles (Leda, after the Swan) ++++++++++from “Use,” by Derick W. Burleson How cruel to pluck so many small instruments of flight, we think, seeing these laid neatly out ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/two-poems-7/

Walk-On

1 A theater. The exterior buzzes with the usual strangers and that winter’s night sensation of vibrating air. What a shame to give up on it and enter. Inside, people won’t be stepping crunchy...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/walk-on/

Bathwater

Susan was from Beijing and didn’t speak much English. She took long, hot baths that left the mirrors afog and the floor pooled with water. And though we lived together, I didn’t know much abo...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/bathwater/

Asp & Venom

I. Upstairs in the kitchen, a small girl holds a viper straight against the table so her father can slit its belly and drain the blood. On assignment in this Vietnamese restaurant I photograph th...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/asp-venom/

Roy

Feel bad for Roy, for the shitty way you were with him.  Whatever you did was nothing, and  so it was something. Roy’s hands were bumpy with warts and you didn’t want to be his link during ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/roy/

Ave Maria

Whom parents sold among Roman soldiers Who limps on her cane between their thighs Blessed among women, baskets of dried fruit On her arm, dates and apricots This apparition of the desert solstice...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/ave-maria/

Hydrangea

I ease pink through blue. I sulfur black and pluck yellows to keep greens. Stamen hide under white unions. I feed buds into being and untangle. Pink to blue, nutrients can squeeze their way shut....

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/hydrangea/

Forage

… is what you do in your wild daily life. I imagine a human equivalent, squatting on a tightrope, say, holding an artichoke in both hands, peeling its leaves away, and eating the tender ends as...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/forage/

Two Poems

You, As Orlando Of course Queen Elizabeth would have loved you as you handed her rosewater. Only you would have questioned so much, changed her. You wouldn’t have liked being a man, but at the ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/two-poems-4/

Fancy Me

It creeps out through your mouth when you sleep, bone by bone, then reconnects at the foot of your bed. Rail-thin knuckles wrap around your doorknob before it slides through. Outside, the night a...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/fancy-me/

Two Poems

Sea of Glass I have lost my way in my grandma’s paradise, she instructing me to mend my ways or I won’t go to heaven with her and me wondering, “Is this the fork in the road,” and, “sho...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2020/two-poems-5/

Chimera

Recent advances in genetic analysis have revealed that chimerism is common. – Tim Flannery, New York Review of Books, March 7, 2019 Phantom twin who never was X and Y alike in DNA blood type bo...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2019/chimera/

Mwizi

Here people are paid to look through windows at night, are given a sack of rice or a bottle of milk for peeling back the sheets in the middle of someone else’s intimate moment. There are places...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2019/mwizi/

Plumbing

once, something sheltered under my left hipbone my lover found it with open hand, blood filling her palm lines once a man brimmed me with trust++++++++and future and yet, no more. end of everybod...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2019/plumbing/

Pink

It was 1985. Her room was pink, and bigger than mine, and she didn’t have to share it with her sister like I did. She had a closet with mirrored doors, and we would put a chair in front of thos...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2019/pink/

Green

You sweet Lemon Boy, you look so good in green. ?“?Lemon Boy and me started to get along together I’d help him plant his seeds and we mowed the lawn in bad weather.?” ?You’ve got a devili...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2019/green/

Downpour

created from your image, i think of down pillows and soft bed sheets wet with the mist of rain from the spill over from windows, the illumined light of adolescence before it fulfills itself in ad...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2019/downpour/

Mausoleum

A body wants to lie down; it wants to buy a plot. Who will meet you at the entrance to this mausoleum? She there, with her head in her hands, woman of sorrow guarding the steps, bent to a phospho...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2019/mausoleum/

The Lesson

After the saw’s incision along the board’s grain, my brother lifts the wood to assess my handiwork, nodding careful approval. Now he has me set the glue, clamp the board to another board. I w...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2019/the-lesson/

Ash

Ash is so fine, it, every day, filters through our letterbox and air vents. It is breathed through the nostrils into our lungs, fills our minds with poison. Furthermore we do not always know who ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2018/ash/

November

Fires smoke the air, the scent a soft comfort from an iron wood stove that calls across the snowy hillside, blazing inside with logs you and Dad needed a whole day to split and stack. You exhale ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2018/november/

Prayers

That morning, news of life ending and life stirring. Beignard, my old buddy, the one they called The Whale for some mysterious reason, had succumbed to the lung cancer, at last, while Victoria, m...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2018/prayers/

Bone Music

An electronic image depicts fractures in your parietal bone. Another, the slight twist and a minor chip in your pelvis. Weeks after, a third uncovers a displaced metatarsal. Looking over the radi...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2018/bone-music/

Lost

The bells of the hospital church peal. The lighter bells count each quarter but when it comes to the serious business of the hour, the weightier bell takes over. As the hour bell counts, there is...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2017/lost/

Rooms

The bathroom must have been cold in winter—our house was heated by a woodstove, downstairs—but I remember it only in summer, the window open, a blue-green damp coming down off the Allegheny f...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2017/rooms/

Say Uncle

Last day at Assumption. Bricking the belfry. Two hundred feet in the sky. It’s hard thinking up here. So I don’t. I do my job. One brick at a time. Some small talk with the young tenders. One...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2017/say-uncle/

Two Poems

Meditation on the Butterfly Effect What if the child has a fever, the mother bending in to wake her as the heat rises up from her skin? What if the child stays home, the sleep-damp curls swept wa...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2016/two-poems-3/

Current

  In between the flash and boom of thunder, I count eleven seconds. Though it’s the middle of the night, we’re both awake, lying face-to-face closer than the four-person tent necessitates. B...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2016/current/

Witch Cake

Pious mouths foam For measurements. The afflicted, always Some woman. Ill-fated poppet. Aproned, but odd. How different is any one of us When fallen quiet or despised? Or alone. Our hearts all he...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2016/witch-cake/

Gilt

They had no papers, no means of travel; and a surly guard with a knife was at the door. “Dreaming of El Dorado” by Marie Arana This transparency shows where I’ve been kissed by lovers, note...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2016/gilt/

Shake

Michael Faraday creates tiny earthquakes to watch the shaking. Try it: Spread sand on a metal sheet. Strike the edge with a violin bow and make that metal sing like catgut. See how particles jump...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2015/shake/

El Shaman

De puerta cerrada, huye el Diablo. The devil flees from a closed door. ~ Mexican proverb My ex-husband is a shaman now. He wears white cotton pants and gathers his supplicants together under the...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2015/el-shaman/

The Cargo

Dusk. Now the bloodstar appears. In the dimness, a wooden hut, scarlet vines that engulf it, seclusion surrounded by barren land, a shadowed vastness that draws down to the river. The life that i...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2015/the-cargo/

Cupcake

If I’ve ever been booked, Junior asks. Come again? I fold my hands and force a smile, to show how polite I am, to create an impression. You have a record? I’m like: A record? Of what? Arrests...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2015/cupcake/

Kovacs

The Oslo Bar is down by the river, down the docks, you can hear the cranes, the winching, you can smell the dust and pick up a few kilos of bananas or a bag of coal from urchins. March is a rough...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2015/kovacs/

Tears

What I do not understand is where the tears go. A baby’s 2:00 A.M. cries for mother’s milk. Perhaps an ounce. A child’s skinning a knee. A couple of tablespoons’ worth, possibly. Lost and...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2015/tears/

Six Poems

Your Treasures Are Marbles Your treasures are marbles, matchbox cars, old maps, fly fishing lures you find in the reeds. Hers are shells, antler shards, acorns, the tip of a raccoon’s tail foun...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2015/six-poems/

Motionless

Trees and moon stir into phantom shapes outside, playing naked on the empty street. Inside, a heavy mood hangs over the kitchen air. Where a platter of lemon-grass fish soup, fried pineapple rice...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2015/motionless/

Janis

It was black-dark and pounding rain and no one was around to see her slip, barefoot, in the mud outside the car where she’d just finished the last cigarette in the pack, and not only had she mu...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2015/janis/

The Ending

with gratitude to Paulann Petersen for her workshop springboards Born in Russia in 1968, A. Molotkov moved to the US in 1990 and began writing in English in 1993. Molotkov co-edits The Inflection...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2014/the-ending/

Two Poems

Falling In, Falling Out The soup pot stirs, my hair dips into the broth, Tendrils warm against my neck like a whisper. I lean again to listen: the potatoes tell me what their eyes have seen. My o...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2014/two-poems-2/

Ghost

Once I was a man of few words even if behind it my mind was feverish. Not many moments of calm, though I learned to keep quiet. I lived in a room overlooking the pier and a field of dandelions. T...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2014/ghost/

Aerograms

“A letter from America was waiting for me at school this morning, from Mom, saying that Gram Krosschell had died.” This was an entry in my journal on March 22, 1976, in Chungmu-si, South Kore...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2014/aerograms/

Blue Moon

I pace the hospital room while medical staff monitors the inner workings of my son’s beautiful body. They patch his exterior—prop, unroll, swab, and cover. I stand at the foot of the bed, hol...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2014/blue-moon/

Labor Day

The albino crocodile has no concept of her own captivity. Pressed against her habitat by the crowd, I watch the great lizard balance on crooked arms plump as the sausage-limbs of babies who have ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2014/labor-day/

Kes Woodi

The red grasses. That’s what I remember. Threading my little brown hands through them on the hills in Oklahoma, my mother calling in Cherokee from the warm little cabin in the distance. The sme...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2014/kes-woodi/

The Flood

God, I thought after three days when the rain wouldn’t abate. At first I stayed home, for there was no point carrying on hoeing around in that weather. The earth turned into a big mush, and the...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2013/the-flood/

Song, Mary

I don’t even believe in desire sometimes. Like the artist from Israel I didn’t want to sleep with— she painted Vermont’s green mountains. There weren’t any bombs in her paintings, so he...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2013/song-mary/

Disinter

Here, in this Ithaca that I am writing, even daylight is acicular. There are words for what I am doing to this landscape—calumniation, a slurring of—O iced apogees and troughs, I have ruined....

https://contrarymagazine.com/2013/disinter/

Skin

— footnote on Wiener Oktoberrevolution, October 6th 1848 composed Oktoberfest, October 6, 2012   What glass eyes gazed out your moribund skin that manic taxidermist Thaller stretched over wood...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2013/skin/

Locked

Mr. Nolan gutted trout on the workbench. Sawdust freckled their skin. He placed the fillets on butter-drubbed foil, sprinkled pepper, onion powder, and salt, and then spread the wrapped fillets a...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2013/locked/

Dog

I am Hercules.  That’s right.  That’s right.  Say my name. I think this when I watch him, imagine what it must be like.  The way he moves suggests a knowledge of the universe I don’t ha...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2013/dog/

Two Poems

Roommate If she drinks a mouth of fire, I dream a mouth of fire. When germs gather, I find myself accidentally caressing her toothbrush. In her room, she pulls dead leaves off the sapling. True, ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2013/two-poems/

Beautiful

A few weeks ago around midnight, I woke up and turned on the lamp.  My cat, Lilly, was sitting at the foot of the bed studying the ceiling with interest.  Not the hunter’s interest that makes...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2013/beautiful/

A Collapse

It was very cold. I dreamed of orange groves in Andalusia and small villages during siesta in Almeria. I turned the key in the lock and sat in the chair. There was a dripping noise, a dripping of...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2013/a-collapse/

Cleaving

My mom tells my dad she wishes she’d never married him, never had his children, who inherited his depression. She’s tired of being around sadness. Melancholia. A beautiful flower in another f...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2013/cleaving/

Pregnancy

Mahnaz woke to the buzzing of the alarm clock. She leaned over, turned it off, and lay back. I must get up now, she thought, I will have to see Dr. Gibbons this morning. But she kept lying there,...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2013/pregnancy/

Parataxis

  Meg Matich is a student in Columbia University’s MFA– Poetry and Literary Translation program, where she focuses on German translation and delves into Slovak translation. Her first chapbo...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2012/parataxis-2/

Devoted

You have the urge to pee during the Forty Hours Devotion. Think of something else, your mother would say, were she there, but the non-believer never comes to church. Church is your father’s de...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2012/devoted/

Limbo

Now that I am older, I play my part as though it mattered a little more. It doesn’t work of course. It never worked, though I have dreamed myself into all kinds of places, for example out west ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2012/limbo/

On A Barge

That Autumn I rented a barge in a secluded pool upstream from the mouth of the harbour, lost in there among the woods. I had an open stove in which I burned timber collected along the neglected w...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2012/on-a-barge/

Good Night

Occulophobia: The fear of nightfall. Edison. Prometheus. Lucifer. Saviors. Lightbulbs. Reedy fire. Those who convert, invert With steady hands. Sleep: the fear of being Awake. Finger, Switch. The...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2012/good-night/

There

There is a jasmine vine on the corner of 9th Ave. and 5th St. It weaves across a fence around a 1938 house that holds the vault of a former bank robber. You will find its combination scratched in...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2012/there/

To Ipswich

They sent me to London for a summit on Global Water Leakage. I lasted no time at all because feeling like a lame duck I soon began to sweat. We were in a convention centre, some stuffy four star ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2012/to-ipswich/

An Eclipse

The cat had been sleeping in the doghouse. The day was like a cave after a lightning. Birth and death played on a see- saw and sight and night played hide and seek. Time had left no tracks. The g...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2012/an-eclipse/

Home

She opens her eyes. She’d squeezed them closed, waiting for the voices to pass her by. As if closing them might allow her to disappear. It was a ritual she’d believed in when she was younger,...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2012/home/

Yom Kippur

The sunlight didn’t break, we are broken, the word ‘broken’ is broken. ~ Yehuda Amichai   Today, everything hurts, and I’m as close to god as I’ll ever come, or want to be.  I try to ...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2011/yom-kippur/

The Twin

She does everything you choose not to and returns each night while you sleep, ever loyal. When you are alone, buried in thoughts like warm sand, then you feel her there. Whatever you want to give...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2011/the-twin/

Two Poems

Tools Hammer and hacksaw, vise and screwdriver have the hard gaze and slow heartbeat of reptiles. I am visiting the hardware store with my father. In a wooden drawer stained by dirty fingers a se...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2011/tools/

Vaucluse

  Virid is the spring that snakes through our garden   dappled with sun-shade (snake-skin)    surrounded by choked-up laurels and strange purple flowers that waver in the water like reflected...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2011/vaucluse/

Red

Then, there was the next time, the last time, the one time when things became grand enough to unfurl all sense of belonging, a hearty red ribbon, carried behind, blowing in deep ripples, red, yes...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2011/red-by-karen-carr/

Ascenscion

When he met me, he stood so close to the lunch table that I had to look straight up him, as one might look up the contours of an overhanging cliff, which meant that he had to look straight down a...

https://contrarymagazine.com/2005/ascenscion/