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I scrubbed the floors today. I moved furniture and scraped old marks with a putty knife, swept and mopped and waxed. When Dolal Idd was killed, I cooked. George Floyd, I gardened. Philando ...
Yesterday, everything was too much. I’m so angry we’re not shut down, local teachers are picketing for distance learning, my entire family works in healthcare and we’ve built an isolation s...
I bought myself an inflatable kayak for my birthday this summer, and it’s been so lovely. I’ve been poking around on local lakes and rivers but my favorite right now is this long, narrow, sha...
If I had gotten the job I was up for last year, the one that sent me into a spiral I was almost pulling out of by late March, I would’ve been laid off last week. Which is a complicated set of...
I’m watching a storm roll in. On the one hand, I’m thankful for the rain, and I love seeing the sky change. On the other, I’m angry that this storm won’t provide the after-the-storm r...
My family made our plan for isolating family members in the house when they’re exposed. For my parents (both nurses), it’s a when, not an if, especially given that they’re working without, ...
On the one hand, it seems unfair that intense cramps don’t just stop because there’s a pandemic. On the other, it’s so very nice to feel okay about curling up in bed all day. The pain mak...
(laughs hysterically)
Tiny life update: I hadn’t been able to make anything since the world changed. Last night, I finished my first art piece since… Christmas? I think? It makes me feel more like myself. My boyfr...
My entire immediate family is in healthcare. 1 in 5 Covid cases are healthcare workers. I’m exhausted.
isopod : > Okay I’m going on a date tomorrow. > > I haven’t been on one in ten years. > > I just invited him to something I was going to do anyways, so ...
Dealing with my current wave of depression is exhausting and challenging and ugh, but also it’s clarifying? I’ve always had a remarkably high tolerance for bullshit, and a tendency to assume ...
I’ve been in bad shape since late December, which is hard, to say the least. I’m safe. Everything is difficult. But I have a support system here. I have routines. I have people. I have frie...
I had a conversation with coworkers this morning that helped me see I am not likely to ever be happy in that workplace, got an official rejection for the dream job I was in the running for this a...
I made it to the next round. Holy shit.
Also I have a preliminary interview for a Dream Job at a Dream Workplace in a Dream Location on Friday, and it’s just when I’d decided I’m okay with where I am. Like the same week I decided...
I have a rare day off from all my jobs that’s also not full of other commitments and I’d like to clean the house because it’s having a bad effect on my mental health. But also yesterday t...
I have no idea what’s going on but I’m delighted to see you all. Hi!
I’ve got bad brains today, the mild kind, like my brain has a cold. It’s not scary, just frustrating. I had a bunch of things I wanted to do, but instead I was uninterested in anything, strug...