Hope through Depression from a survivor of suicide. "Specter" is the personification of my depression.
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2020/06/22/now-you-may-know-what-this-is-like/
Drowning, Dying, Hopelessness; blackened pit of night Living with the Specter; in a world devoid of light The torture and the torment; wrapped around the soul Loneliness, seclude...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2018/02/18/part-ii/
Oh yeah, it’s upside down too.
Hope through Depression from a survivor of suicide. "Specter" is the personification of my depression.
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/12/11/unfortunately-depression-endthestigma/
Hope through Depression from a survivor of suicide. "Specter" is the personification of my depression.
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/12/11/depression-endthestigma/
Hope through Depression from a survivor of suicide. "Specter" is the personification of my depression.
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/12/11/im-good/
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https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/12/06/are-you-on-twitter-depression-mentalillness/
I went to see my doc today about my meds. He had me on 40mg of Lexapro and 15mg of Abilify. Since the side effects have remained the same (apathy, disinterest in life, etc.) he upped the Abilify ...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/12/06/meds-update-more-pics-of-nessa-depression/
If you’re a follower of my blog, you’re probably thinking I finally got my meds tweeked. No such luck. Hopefully, that’ll come tomorrow. I’ll keep you posted. What I did do, is make a fe...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/12/05/i-made-a-few-little-tweeks/
For the purposes of this post, we’ll entitle these images, “The Creeper”, haha. Hope everyone’s Monday has started off well!
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/12/05/my-bunny-vanessa/
If you could see me you probably wouldn’t be able to tell what surviving means. Unless you had it. A.k.a. depression. Your Specter may be different. PTSD. Anxiety. Bipolar Dissociative Disord...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/11/28/what-does-surviving-the-specter-look-like/
Contextual background: Catharsis of Ur wakes to find himself in a room recovering from the attack of the Wahrlog, Specter. He was rescued by angelic sentries after trying to take his life in or...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/11/26/the-great-ziggurat-short-story/
Hope through Depression from a survivor of suicide. "Specter" is the personification of my depression.
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/11/24/happy-thanksgiving-folks/
This post officially begins a new category on the right side of my wall – Life. It is an area I want to open up in more to my readers. It’s not that exciting, but I’m hoping you enjoy the r...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/11/23/the-good-samaritan/
Hope through Depression from a survivor of suicide. "Specter" is the personification of my depression.
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/11/23/upward-digital-photography/
I came upon a blog today by Rochelle Wisoff-Fields that contained a 100-words-or-less photo writing challenge – Friday Fictitioneers. Below is my answer to the challenge based on the accompany...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/11/23/calloused-short-story/
Hope through Depression from a survivor of suicide. "Specter" is the personification of my depression.
Here is a mountain range I drew for fantasy map practice. You can tell that I was experimenting with different techniques if you look closely at different sections. Still not certain I’ve decid...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/11/20/fantasy-mountains-world-map/
i built a little wall around a broken little heart I found that’d fallen out upon the ground to save it from the hurt i patched the hurt and kissed the pain i hugged away the guilt and shame...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/11/18/mended-poetry/
I took a trip I haven’t taken in a while. It was three hours, from Virginia to North Carolina. To see my dad. It meant the world to him and he was grateful and happy. Regardless of the short di...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/11/13/me-and-my-pharma-cocktail-took-a-little-trip/
Trigger Warning: This poem is about self harm. Please do not read it if this is a trigger. Though I do not struggle with self harm, several of the close people in my life do, and so I wanted the...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/11/10/nursery-rhyme-poem/
I came across the video below about artist Shawn Coss who decided to draw one mental health illness each day for the month of October. I contacted Shawn and asked him for permission to post some ...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/11/05/drawing-mental-illness-video/
Laying on the couch. Skeletal arm around me. Sucks my soul away.
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/10/31/the-darkest-thing/
This morning, as I was drinking a cup of coffee, a day after my 43rd birthday, I felt a convulsive scattering across the roof of my mouth. I choked. And spit. I looked down and saw the bug lying ...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/10/25/brain-bugs/
“You did the best you could with what you had at the given time. That’s all any of us can do.” Queensryche – Best I Can Don’t worry, dear he’ll never find the gun A child alone in da...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/08/21/doing-the-best-i-can/
My girlfriend and I of three years broke up a couple weeks ago. And it’s been the hardest thing to do to remain steadfast. I didn’t want to part ways but I did because I couldn’t endure he...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/08/20/the-hardest-thing/
Toxicity My soul has left and with it, The Albums and the Tags. The memories put in boxes, And thrown out in the trash. Windows boarded, curtains down, paint chips fall onto the ground. A weather...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/08/19/toxicity-poetry/
So I took the plunge and published a Facebook page, “Surviving the Specter”. I want to reach more people so they know they are not alone in their struggles…that there are others out there g...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/08/14/today-i-created-a-fb-page/
I love you, my friend. I wanted to make sure you were safe and doing alright.
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/08/13/someone-may-need-this-pass-this-on/
For survivors of mental illness, they say journaling is a way to help you heal. Here’s my effort at catharsis… My girlfriend of nearly three years, and I, just parted ways. We’ve broken up ...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/08/12/ending-of-a-relationship/
Unfortunately, I can empathize with you, my friend. For my depression controls me, too. It is not a passing state of mind, nor a feeling. It is something we survive through every day. Sometimes, ...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/08/11/my-depression-controls-me/
Hope through Depression from a survivor of suicide. "Specter" is the personification of my depression.
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/08/10/loneliness-quote/
Contextual background: A brief history of Ür and its rise to greatness is given along with the story of how affliction came to be. The walled city of Ür had not always been the great fortress i...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/08/09/the-sickness-and-the-seal-short-story/
Originally posted on americandenial : I eat Pills That eat Memories That create Pain That causes Suffering My brain Eats me So I eat Pills
The whole issue with this depression thing – it has sucked all life out of me like some soul harvester. This past year has been one of the most relentless struggles I’ve had to endure. It ge...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/08/04/this-depression-thing/
Originally posted on surviving the specter : NOTE: Dear reader, this post talks openly about suicide. If this is a trigger, please do not read it at this time. Thank you. May peace come to you i...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/07/31/when-do-we-decide-to-commit-suicide-2/
Some time ago I posted about beginning to write short fantasy stories dealing with depression and made a fantasy map of the world I was envisioning. If you’ve been following along, you’ve rea...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/07/23/heres-my-fantasy-world-map-so-far/
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/07/07/christian-hopkins-depression-photography_n_7714426.html?slideshow=true#gallery/437748/0
Catharsis hung there. Limp. Swaying from the rafter that supported his mud and straw-thatched roof. He could hear the cord stretch and groan from his weight as his eyes became heavy. Back and for...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/07/02/catharsis-and-the-angels/
Originally posted on surviving the specter : Hi folks. I’m Chris. And for about 12 years, playing drums has been a significant part of my life. I played throughout middle and high school and ...
*TW Hello my little failure, we’ve been waiting for your return We know our pressure’s way too much, we know for what you yearn A little song of sweet respite, to whet your pathetic appetite...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/06/20/killing-myself-part-2/
The Wall A little brick of hate was laid, down into the dirt. Along with words of callousness, and spite, and wrath, and hurt. A wall was built that housed mistrust, by someone I loved dear. It g...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/06/05/the-wall-poetry-2/
“To the world you may be one person. “But to one person you may be the world.” I remember when I’ve been in the throws of my Specter, and consumed with such hopelessness and misery I bel...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/06/04/thought-someone-right-now-needed-to-hear-this/
Hello and Happy Memorial Day. One thing I love aside from taking pictures at the beach, is taking pictures of train tracks. They entrance and mystify me somehow. I wanted to share them with you. ...
Depression jacks up my relationships. Intimate or non-intimate. I’m not pawning my behaviors off on depression. Just explaining where they come from. To improve myself, I must understand myself...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/05/29/living-with-a-depressed-male-chapter-summary/
A couple months ago I published a blog post called “Brok3n & Betray3d”. It was about how my girlfriend told me she cheated on me and how that affected my emotional state over the next few day...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/05/28/righting-a-wrong/
Before Catharsis passed through his Breaking Point against the Wahrlog of Darkness, there were many days his mind would wander. One thing he thought about was love. He wondered…wondered if he w...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/05/26/love-and-the-maiden/
Had to reblog this from Deb’s site Living In Stigma. Check her out and give her a follow. Thank you for the information, my friend. X https://cherished79.wordpress.com/2016/05/26/depression-giv...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/05/26/depression-infographic/
Hope through Depression from a survivor of suicide. "Specter" is the personification of my depression.
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/05/22/grey-image/
I was prejudiced. I prejudged. I didn’t think that an office of 400+ onsite/offsite employees would support this. I didn’t think a firm of 10,000+ employees worldwide would support this. N...
https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2016/05/20/theres-this-at-work/